But, here's my answer. It's me, inevitably and undeniably. M-E.
I don't how I should be talking about it. Fear, the common emotion often stirred up in all of us, is caused mainly due to myself? And, Im especially fearful of my subconscious,a state of half-asleep and half-awake, cause I go off thinking of the the worst and most improbable situations that seemed so surreal and confusing.
Maybe that's why recently I've been suffering from a memory lapse, I mixed up past, present, fantasy and dreams. It's to the extent that I recall doing something, but I can't recall if it's this or that person, or even when. Recently, past to me is like a week ago and yesterday is like today. I don't really know what's wrong. haha..
But it's fine with me. I'm one who like to live AS controversy. Learn me on your jouney as my friend to learn that you need to unlearn sometimes. I'm really just human. Expectations too high often break you, not me.
Think I'm really great at picking myself up from shards of glass, but I think I'm better at throwing myself into these glass. LoL, hope you get what I mean.
Life have been much of a fiasco and I feel jaded. "Of what?" Of all the sh*t that people throw me with. What's worst is to have your close friend stereotype and assume grave matters about you. Please dont. Don't generalise, categorize, typicalise me.
I may not be a lot, but I'm definitely much more.
I know what anyone of you might do to your friends is to slightly generalise them, so that you'll be able to access how s/he would react in a particular situation. But let me tell you this: don't lock me in. Let me soar. Don't chain me up. Let me soar. Willy, a whale in the wild.
You're so fragile now that the World is your sole pillar.
I've become no more than an ignition spark and cause to all the problems.
If the real pit hole lies in yourself, face it.
Don't recognise it and go throwing the load on others.
Don't apologise(esp not to me) if meaning it is the last thing on your mind.
Nevertheless, I'll still pray for you. God bless.
till then;
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