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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Your Birthdate: April 26

You lucked out the the skills to succeed in almost any arena.Put you in almost any business or classroom, and you'll rise to the top.You're driven and intense, but you also know when to kick back and cooperate.Your ability to adapt to almost any situation is part of what's going to make you a success.
Your strength: Your attention to detail
Your weakness: You can be a little too proud of your successes
Your power color: Turquoise
Your power symbol: Arrow pointing up
Your power month: August

rather true.. all the way up to power colour, i would say it's accurate!

till then; 00:01

Tuesday, April 25, 2006

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My last few minutes..

My last moments being a seventeen year old guy. Every "one" that i get annually, i treat it as a target for the level of maturity I've to attained. Rather intangible and subjective though.

Immunity to criticism is probably this past year's most evident "skill" that I've acquired. From being claimed to be the third party to be judged by friends who are skeptical about you(inevitable, especially being a s*ckor that I am) to being devalued by even strangers, I've gone immuned. If what they say is true, I would have forever hold my peace and never be here. Just a piece of advice for those who are still trying to get use to criticism: No matter how hard you try, you cant satisfy everyone.

Maybe because of the exact same quote, I dont try to be extremely nice or make an extra effort to be in favour of anyone, Just be myself in my way. Hold truth to my path, and though in an abyss, I'm walking with faith because I know i have friends who support me.=)

Recollecting of what I've faced with this year, of which i wont mention online as they're personal, I think it hasn't exactly been a wonderful year. Still I've enjoyed every minute of being seventeen. I hadn't been exactly a good friend to everyone in my life, I've been neglecting a lot of people. But I know i'm on my way to light.

More confidence and much more composed in facing shocking and unexpected situations. Life is still as wild as a roller coaster ride like ever. I've been thinking, whether I should share something with someone, for about 2 to 3 months, but i think im more or less decided. =)

In the aspect of love, it's rather full of pitfalls and emptiness. LoL.. But I do see a cute girl in the J1 cohort. Miss Long shorts. =P

I believe for every heart that whispers in the dark,

there's a ray of light somewhere shining through.

It was sink,

or swim,

when the tide came in

I found myself when i found you.

I found the closest thing next to heaven.

Wanna sing it to you. Will I get that chance?

Spent the last ticklings of me being seventeen recalling, repenting and reaffirming.

I must thank all those who supported perfetcLite.blogspot in reading in, and encouraging me.

I also extend my gratitude to all of the pillars of strength that stood by me in this past year, and those who stood by me through much longer and ardous roads.

I pray for the best for Simin, Kent, TongLoong in tomorrow's Talentime semis.

Remember: Just be your best. :)

God bless!

I pray for my best under S19's clutches.....

till then; 23:12

Saturday, April 22, 2006

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Work Work....

Finally endured a week of stress and pressure, not explaining much as to why though. Hmm.. Yesterday(Friday), was the worse: Napha Test!

I know in my heart my failing event of Standing Broad Jump, And no matter how intimidating pull ups are, they're no match for SMJ's horror. LoL.. Nah, it's just a case of bad technique and fear of letting myself go. I'll keep on practising though. Pull ups were the funniest, everyone(not everyone) was cheating. You just keep pulling, no matter what, and somewhere in time you'll feel Jie Sheng's hand on your back, in an attempt to set u straight and free from swaying, but in fact, was pushing you up. Then there's Thomas jumping, and stretching in front of the teacher trying to cover the crime.

What I did was worse, I kicked the wall and everything in sight, that includes the bench right at my foot, creating a big bang. LoL! Thomas said Mr Ng CT(Teacher in charge of the Pull Ups Station) failed to hide his grin when he heard that noise, but still pretended dumb.

SBJ was really normal this year, not that frightening anymore.. And thanks to Dorae(who was the Data Logger for my class), helped me faked a C. =) Not to mention, she helped a lot more poor souls too. =)

Sit and Reach was the only breeze i encountered all these years. 59cm, yeah~! Xuan Yu was like rubber lah, he stretched to reach the limit of 63, it was O.O for all of us.

Ran the Shuttle Run at 9.7s, cool cool cool. lol, dont know if it's my max, but as long as it's A. Who cares. Anyway, thank goodness we ran shuttle run at the track, i might have slipped and fall if we were doing in on concrete ground, cant find any shoes in my home that offer good grip.

Sit Ups, managed a 46, though they were not of standard ones. only 3/4 to recovery position, i came up le. Wee~!

2.4!!!! OMG.. Once the whistle(i actually i forgot what was the cue) went off, I started dashing. And yesh, this means im at the wrong pace. Barely halfway through my first round, i realised i couldnt make it at this speed for six rounds. And I'm supposed to accompany kent. Shit, where's Kent!?!?!? I dont dare to look back, just reduce my speed and pace it around there. Still I was running at 5:30 for my third run, that makes 1:50s per round, which means I'll get my B if i keep going at this pace.

But practically I was alone lah, then from like the second or the third round, i was together with another stranger and sorta kept my spirits up because i felt so "un'cast-away'" anymore. He sped off eventually, darn! LOL. After which, no one passed me to join up with me but instead, past me to pass me, I was like eh.. "someone behind??? come join me leh!!" i just had to keep going.

but my negativity just keeps striking. "wah two more rounds leh, slow down lah", "you're tired, give up, run another day when you're more fresh and ready lah", "you'll not make it under 11:50 de, stop for a while, walk lah.", What prevented me for pulling out or stopping for a rest was my friends at the edge of the track. Every half a round, i get motivational call-outs from my friends telling me to jia you, counting down for me and dismissed the inner demons from successfully stopping me. Thanks to Shu Zhen, Yun Jia, Sophie, and Denise and those whom i failed to recall. =) Wee, First time for my life, just kept pacing at the same speed, going ALONE, and i realised something I just kept running, never check my stop watch at all. haha..! But sians, when i completed my run, i took a couple of steps and then looked at my stop watch, clocked it and it was at 12.05, disappointed though i was running at one of my max already. Was like: huh.. hmm.. nvm loh.. haha!

Didnt hold much hopes but when the official timing was released, I was practically riding a cloud when i heard Yun Jie announced Willy:11:39!!!! WeEEeEeeee!!! Not all surprising for many people, but a morale booster for me~! lalala~!

So determined for the run for the first time, combated myself into saying "4 rounds left, good timing for first two rounds" instead of "sh*t, 4 more rounds ahhhhhhhh". Chose to view the glass as half filled then half empty. A lil proud of myself lah.

And after the run, which was the last item of the day, i just went around lying down and stretching and cooling down. So Shuang! weee.. I felt more energetic after the run, although somehow I caught a flu. Haha.. So happy. However, not long after, I felt all moody again, mind processing lots of things that have and have yet to happen. rather stress and worn out mentally. Then kena "cordially invited" by simin to join her and kent at the kBox. hehe.. Think they too tired bah, keep singing until 12+ still no conclusion. So I advised them to stop the night and make the decision tomorrow(which essentially today). I dont know how things went though, shall find out when i meet kent and cheng in half an hour's time. Speaking of which, im zoning out of here, running late.

Will update more when i get home and free this weekend.

bewilderment got the best of me.

till then; 13:26

Monday, April 17, 2006

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Truly Miles From A Smile

Taking time off my Assignment-choinging to update a little about myself to myself. This past week, I've not been idling all too much. Been dealing with some interpersonal relationship matters, working out solutions to some problems and the usual trying-to-catch-up-with-the-tutorials lifestyle.

Exhausted as expected, there will still be no big breaks for me. I'm also currently fighting some inner demons, or rather i would say, some inner thoughts on relationships. Started to think whether there will be this day when I go running to my close friend, anyone in general, crying over spilled milk between me and my girl. It made me ponder further as to whether such girls would even appear or would they not.

Besides these boy-girl-relationships worries, there's still the study doubt. Can I make it? I seemed to be on track to many people but deep in my heart, I know I'm way behind time. And I better do something about it.

I guess they're just feelings of insecurity that are really uneccessary, but still there exist a need to curb them. How is it possible, you may want to ask? For me, it's through a series of self-assurance and more essentially, talking to my friends, directly or indirectly, to get some advices and directions. Humans are such weak creatures that one's strength cannot support oneself through one's whole life. We depend on the use of external strength and others as pillars of emitional support. Nothing wrong with it though, people who couped up too much are the real sick people. Because they get so emotionally unstable that they start/continue to do stupid things.

What I'm trying to say is that, if you have a problem(s), a serious one, and you have no solutions to it(them), maybe it's time to turn to a friend or a family member. We apparently forgotten the basic notion that we only get to live a few pathetic decades(more than sufficient though, I'm just not particularly happy about our relative lifespan compared to that of Earth's) and we wont be able to make all the mistakes and (quite impossibly) learn from all the mistakes we make.

Sometimes, it's easier to learn from others because you do get clearer picture of the whole situation. More often than not, your friends would have met with problems you never had before, what not would it be, to just consult his/her opinions and learn from the considerations s/he taken and the impact of his/her actions. To put it simply, we dont live long enough to experience all sorts of problems, learn from each other.

hmm, What I've said shouldn't be the first time you're reading them, but the thing is, do you remember it?

Another basic rule of thumb is that Humans are nothing without problems around. We meet with problems day in, day out, every second, every time we make a turn round a corner. Problems are everywhere. They're the indispensable shaping tool of one's character and maturity.

We should not be seeking to eradicate the roots of problems, because without problems, there exist no human. They will be around, whether you like it or not. So better get use to it. Fight them, challenge them and never give up. Through a problem, do you grow most.

If you have not noticed, the root to all problems is you. It is your interaction with the nature, other homo sapiens, animals, machines that problem arises. It is when you sit down and think through ya life, do you find problems.

I like problems actually. They irritate me, but whenever you triumph over one of them, you get extremely elated.

Sexy girls.

I wanna make my wishes soon. World peace!

till then; 21:10

Sunday, April 09, 2006

Stupid Acts :)

`free and easy

till then; 03:07

Saturday, April 08, 2006

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True Update

This 21 days, I've been thinking a lot.Thinking about nothing as well, it's not easy living out my dreams and to live in reality. It's one of those periods whereby I find expressing myself a job too hard to take on. That is why i didnt participate really actively in the debate held during one of the GP lessons. Cant speak well, stutter, cant even understand the situation, what can i voice out? LoL

It's been quite a while since I'm intimately in a real relationship. By right, I should feel a sense of loneliness, but instead I'm feeling a state of relieve. Maybe it's because I have no need to be held with so much responsibility for someone's emotional state and happiness. But then again, I seem to be harming quite a few around me in my daily life. I agree to what Tong said which i interpret as: being a nice guy hurt those around you twice as much as being a jerk.

I also understand that the more you dont want to hurt someone, the more that u hold back your true emotions, the more likely are you to hurt the other party. Oh well.. hmmm.. yah.. As you grow older, the world dims and complicates. Friendship is not about relationships between friends anymore. At least for most cases, it is so.

Hmm, what should I talk about next...? okay, there's the gang of crazees from S19: From JS to Yong Kian, eight of us altogether. (LoL.. lazy to list them down lah.. haha) Someone identified that although we are always together, there still exists sub groupings within the gang for the most obvious examples JS and Cheng tends to stick together like Willy and Kent does. hmm.. while some are more neglected, more solo. I dont know how to put it.

But for me, it's inevitable. The mentality of some individuals will be: Such a big group, so easily left out in jokes and activites, should i find someone to cling onto slightly more?

If u do get what i'm trying to say, ya.. hmm. I dont know what I can do to help as well. Im already starting to find it hard to hold my temper back and in addition, im bad with friendships. But the good thing is, not all is bad about the group. There are people who are starting to open up more, like nichk who starred in a movie clip in which the primary plot was devised by him. There's also yong kian who is getting sharper and more evil with his words. =).. But seriously, if we do not do something about it, we might end up as happy tree friends.(www.happytreefriends.com) all fun, no good ending. LoL.. What im saying is not that when X has a problem, he has to tell the whole gang. It's not easy for one to speak about his/her problems to such a big group. WHat I'm trying to bring across is that, we should remove the chasm and mix around more like one big group when we are hanging out. yah.

ps. I've remove all pop ups and alerts le bah, so if you're viewing pictures, you can click on them and return back to the Update page more easily. Do click on the pictures hor, cause it's really unclear in their current state.

Unleash the heal of the Arena.

till then; 21:08

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Life in JJ

As you scroll, you may want to ponder on exactly what kind of life do i lead in JJ.

The class of Nineteen.

As we sweat and tire, we support and brighten each other.
What more can I ask for?

On our way to Little India to become little indians.. O.o
Cheers Anyway!!

The "Front Row Guys" are depesperately trying to get the attention of the camera at the back of the picture, evoking a purple aura of "i cant stand myself anymore"

Gals of Nineteen!! They looked kinda evil though.... muahahahaa~!

After a full meal at KFC, it's time for a nap.. =)

Look who's spotted with a flowery butt! Mr Kent

time for a rest....

JJ is nothing but nineteen...

till then; 17:20

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O5S19 BBQ on 25/03/06

The ultimate attempt to get rid of thomas appearing in a picture,
He was supposed to be in the front of the picture, but then in the blink of an eye, all others turned around to face camera 2 and snapped it down!
what sad it he's still in the background!

Great games of Twister we enjoyed before and during the BBQ.
the thing is, dont play together with Thomas and Willy, matters will get messy. =]

Family portrait: Clockwise from top left: Grandma, Grandpa, Grandson, Mother.

A rare photo of the last alive Emporer and his concubines,
just not sure why Concubine Choo appeared so spastic.

We welcome a new classmate, Jin Yi, into our class this year. To the right, stands Jie Sheng and Lau Cheng.

And you thought they were good friends in the above picture.

Lynn in "I'm not the only one with spastic look"

A very nice picture of Zhe Mei and Y^3,
spoilt by the tee-yien-lookalike-david in the background.

...having fun but working hard.

till then; 13:41

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Bonjour!

guess who's back, back again, Willy's back, back for more!

im back! im back! im back..!

Okay, after a 20 days "hiatus", im coming back for more! Actually what really got me to overcome my inertia to start blogging is to see a passer-by's tag on my blog, it goes ": hi... i happen to see your blog by chance.. i like your char... so go for it... jiayou( in whatever you do )".

Pleasing comment, i guess, wonder who it could be. Probably someone i know? I'll never find out probably.

Okay, think i should explain a lil. I took a break from blogging because i couldnt find anytime to commit to other things besides studies for a while. It was all tutorials, assignments, test, tutorials, revision exercises, assignments and tests and this and that and this. T.T. I'm getting so fixated on Mathematics, Chemistry and Physics, and im sucked super dry. but i think, things are going easy for once, so i'll take this opportunity to blog! It'll be in no time that i'll get back, dwelling in books and tutorials again!

Anyway, just a brief catch up coming up on what activities i failed to blog on because of the hiatus. I dont think i have the perseverence to do full reviews.. LoL.

The most prominent one, i guess, would be the barbeque JJ05S19 had on the 25th of March, where i guess it's one of the highest turn-up of the class itself. >20/25. quite amazing, Even Nicho came back from Mars to join us, and Angeline had the Teen titans scene held up to grace the occasion. (because i think she looks and acts like Ravern from Teen Titans). The teachers all pon/missed the event though, we should really demand for MC or parents' letter to officially excuse them for the bbq.

It was fun and rather successful even though the whole event did not see through a long period of planning. The idea, plans and everything drawn up in a week, and food was quite rushed out too. Kent got his dad to prepare the All Famous Soon's Family Chicken Wings. Then the others went down to Giant IMM to get the rest of the food, (there's Cheng, JS, Dorae, Lynn and me!) Quite fun and it makes u hail your mum for doing the grocery for the family. It's not an easy task! haha.What wasn't really good was that we had it at peiyin's apartment's bbq pit, which restricts the time allowed for us to linger on, leaving behind tons of foods! We got to leave by 12am, oh man!

Oh anyway, I left earlier than most of them to make it to yuhui's house to celebrate her dad's birthday! Both her mum and dad were out for a dinner, so everyone gathered at her house first and waited for her parents to return. I guess i was getting a little groggy and crazy from the alcohol i had over at the bbq, so i started cracking very stupid jokes that i find rather amusing, had quite some good laughs over them. Especially the part where we,(Eileen, Me, Jie Ying and ShiQi and Louie) was havings a few rounds of Bridge.

Darn funny to see Qi and Louie launch into a debate on 10-4s and 9-4s after i asked some questions. It is just a simple game! lalala.. okay.. getting drained, dont know what else happened in my life. hmm..

So i'll post up the pictures next.

I'm learning how to breathe.

till then; 13:06