-[ Fibrill of Memories ]-
What's up with memories?
Do they give you strength?
If you think they do, they dont. If you think they dont, you're right, they don't. duh
Make no mistakes, draw no more power from them.
Kim Sun Ah said in her role as Kim Samsoon to "stop thinking memories has any power at all. Memories are plainly for reminiscence." When I first heard it, I was so ready to rebuke all of what was said. Taking a few more moments to run the past moments at the back of my head, I came to realised that she, or probably the script writer, is actually right. Although you might still have love for that person from your past relationships, things WILL never work out again as lovers. Anger simmers to a nostalgic scar that hurts like a healing wound. Indulging in past successes lets you sink into a comfort zone heading for hell(quote: LFY).
But I will never choose to hide any of my memories for good. I like memories, happy or sad, exciting or boring. It lets me know, and makes me grow. It makes me feel the pain of yesterday, and prevents the grand fall from ocurring a.much.a.p. However, I'll keep telling myself to never let it get the better of me. It's not easy, but i have to try.
=)
To be frank, I actually prefer sad memories than jovial-er ones. I'm pessimistic about the past, optimistic about the future and unsure of now.
Unveil the future. Understand the present. Change your past.
Trirony.
till then;
00:30
Monday, October 23, 2006
-[ nostalgia ]-
[oh sh*t] I just wanna drown in sex and excitement.
[oh sh*t] Shh, you know hear me.
[oh sh*t] Stop the talking, let's get moving.
[oh boy] Check out your back, yeah watch my tail.
[oh you] Before you know it, we'll be over.
till then;
22:58
Sunday, October 01, 2006
ººLove and Relationshipºº
Don is right, I dont know lots of sh*t. "I'm a trendy geek whose making the best out of everything bad because I cant choose." Just one thing to tell Don: You are still young too, dont be too absolute.
I dont know everything, i dont think you do. At least, I know.
I'm here to make a little distinction: With love comes relationship. Yeah, They're undeniably intertwined and inseparable. But some people just try to have one of them unknowningly, relationship.
True Love is everything, including the aspect relationship. The form that has true mutual concern, true feelings involved.
True Relationship is more a cultivated achievement in a love. Where two has true mutual understanding, are without ego, with compromise, is sacrificial and non-conditional, of true maturity, and even the sacred sex. I dont mean these characteristics exist all time, they may seem to fade off, there can be quarrels and disputes, but they will prevail.
Dont try to put a time frame or sequence to love and relationship, they happen indefinitely and freely.
Nonetheless, there are people that ignorant to be oblivion to all these and be stubborn still. Today, in Singapore, most relationships are an "a" away from realtionship. It's just not real. Casting doubts onto the one you "love", holding onto your ego, refusing to lift the stern on your face, on and on. This is not love. This is not even relationship. Such terms are often misused by teens, like the terms: Friends, mature, sorry. "I love you" to some is just eight letters with two spaces in between. How insulting and hurting and devastating and agitating.
No! It is all of me when I mean really, really mean it.
Love is not only about the two person involved, it is not only about you, it is not only about him/her. It's about everyone you come into contact with.
Dont jump into a "relationship" when you arent ready, when you dont love him/her truthfully, when you still think yo'u are the more important. Dont fall in "love" if all you want is to receive concern and care from the other party. Dont fall in "love" if all you want is sex.
Be responsible, as a human enough who doesnt one to hurt the other party. You dont have to understand love first, you have to be ready.
till then;
18:10
PeiLi's Shuaiges
yeah, peili likes gays. =)
till then;
17:20
Beautiful Music
-reminds me why I am alive.
Hurt: Feel the gist of all of mine.
Moulin Rouge: Moulin Huge to be exact, with Mayo and Big Kim and plus plus. LOL
Deja Vu: Release the sensual fun and the sexual fun.
Ring the alarm: Sound the siren of truth and goodbyes.
till then;
16:36
