Just me...

Tuesday, January 31, 2006

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..::Chinese New Year with BBIans and friends::..

i cheated, changed the date of this entry, im actually typing this on Feb 04..=D

Anyway, BBIans are set to meet on the third day of the Lunar New Year at Yuhui's house. The other guys arranged to meet at 3pm JP Giordano. Just a few stops after I boarded bus 30, Serene and ShuZhen boarded. abZhen went to Serene's house to earn another angbao.

im typing like a retard, would continue this entry soon.

till then; 23:05

Saturday, January 28, 2006

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Chinese New Year

Chinese New year, what is its symbolism anyway? Think kids nowadays take it as a spring break where a sudden burst of income comes in and there're lots of goodies to devour. And to parents, a time to meet up with old friends and relatives, a break from work too, and not to forget some feel a hole burnt up in their pockets. haha.. anyway, the story of Nian(monster that haunts villagers on New Year's Day and is afraid of noise and the colour red) doesnt really convince me for it to be the biggest event of the Lunar. Anyway, to me, it's not too much about the money, but the blessings and the care my relatives shower upon. Especially this year, when the relatives of my mom's side have suffered through a great ordeal. Dont know how it'll turn out.

Oh well, haha. Im still happy too.. Will be visiting lots of relatives, and tonight the very eve of chinese new year, I'm gonna spend it with kent, yongkian, denise and deqi and some more peeps from 05S19 ba.. Anyhow, I got a new love for Taro pies~! haha.. =D.. pardon the pun. hmm.. just in I forget the dates: JLSL 2001 july-september. JT 2004 December-Feburary. DBT 2005 march13-september04. haha.. Blogspot is my online personal diary man. Cause most of you guys wont even know what the exact rubbish im typing out. =)

After so many years, think I've grown attached to talking to myself le bah. Unless someone could.

Lock me in your heart and never let me go.

Show me love the way it's supposed to be.

Unbreak my heart.

till then; 15:12

Sunday, January 15, 2006

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a little more... personal

"@@, you make my life complete," was too big a claim in @@'s spirit, as least to my personal opinions. The notorious, top-notched' institution provided materials to benefit herself. She wants to lead the bring glory to herself, wait a minute. Or is it he and for himself instead? He who, him who. Our infamously ingenius principal. Am I saying that's bad and wrong of him for all that he's done? Nope, he did bring fame, recognition and I truly salute him for what he had done. How many would have envisioned a neighbourhood college gaining a top-college limelight.

If you were me.

But the means he goes about to achieve what he has done, I don't agree and grateful(and thus far from what i know, he dont care what i think). No student's rights, crazy rules on hair, policies he make that redefine others' life in matters of seconds with impact of a catastrophe. Many a times do I hear from people who are more skilled in dealing with him, "He's not your usual principal, he's a businessman-cum-principal(I stress the order i present to you.)". I'm saying he's going at the expense of my, our, their, the countries' lives. Yes, he only sets general directions and allow people to run on those tracks, but the paths are so narrow, only the "nice" ones get the opportunity. To be a outstanding Student Leader, let me tell you, the first criteria is your hair must be non-spiky, unless of course your dad is some big shot in the school which allows you to put on a charade.(bwhaha) The teachers are so bow wow. So are the well-trained and force-fed Project Pioneers, while we all know some of them pretended to be good boys and girls so they get the scarce chance to be a Orientation Facillitators. Some frontier teachers in charge do put the students' interests at the very priority, at least it's made to seem like that, to convince and move people. I do hear people saying, "The main concern for working so hard with the students is their own future." Worse all, if you belong to a society gaining too much attention and coverage, you'll be near your eradication. I've heard of teachers inplanting values to the Leaders of Leaders(LoL) that "your club is not good, they're planning against you, they're challenging you." Hey, Im not saying they did such degrading stuff, but that's what i heard. I have the right to believe it.

If only you were me.

Then the LoL go around giving u the stares, the cold look. hey, i dont owe u my life to see you guys/girls/lackies ckungif sulk at me everyday, okay? What we treated you with the purest friendship, we were offered with lies and cold faces. Thanks for the reward man. The deeper Im in with my club, the grayer my life gets. Im hurt, denied, and taken out. You won @@, happy? Help that was promised never arrived, never from the top, they were not there, just like fire sprinkles at the top of your head never setting off with u smoking away. Worse still, you dont even get to see them on top of ur head. Worse still, the institution makes crushing your very house as reconstructing it. well, if the Principal ever gets to see this, he'll say I'm cklufigyn stupid to not accept things in a positive manner. Why not, you try it at the age of seventeen, when the very identity ur pigged and cowed for is taken away and annihilated.

If you were me, maybe.

I really dont know what'd gotten into me lately. I feel empty, akin to a nut shell. Friends in @@, Thomas, Jie, Tong, Cheng, Kent, Nich and many more. I dont deny them being the by-far more enriching experience. But Im really indebted to all them, i guess. Im always there with a gray face, not knowing what to and what can i say. Lots to share, but little time. They are the closest, yet distant ones. I've been bruised terrible over the years before I step into a place where I'm warmly welcomed by the class(not that I'm outcast or hated for), much lesser challenges to overcome, and of course much lesser turmoils. I dont open up to a person in matter of months, needless to say a big group. I need a long period of true quality orientation bah, something two years in @@ cant grant me. I don't deny sometimes i'm so troubled that I've to fake a smile out, but i did that only to keep the spirit in the group up.

Do you still wanna be me?

However, times spent with them had always been great and rewarding. Im not too committed in the group cause I don't really do groupies when i was thrown in turblent times. Friends I've made, Friend I'll remember @@05S19. The class is funnily bonded. Goodness, We had a class outing at Marina South for a steamboat and an over-sixty-percent attendance was almost unbelievable for any JC's Civics class. Moreover, two teachers(I'll call them GTL.T- Great Teachers L and T) joined us in the merry event, as friends, not of superior status. That's what I'm happy as im astounded. They even joined us in our dumb game of "Open Numbers" and "Fear Factor". What the merry world, spoonful of butter, watermelon "stubs", rubber charsiew, stone bao, charsiew fried rice, essence of rubbish food and soup. Whats more appalling was that some fourteen of us, inclusive of the GTL.T, caught a late night movie together, The Memoirs of a Geisha. We so wanted to dozed off, not that the movie is not up to it, just that we were worn out. It was an extraordinary deep movie. haha.. All these, with GTL.T are a part of us. GTL.T, Im grateful for what you've done for the class(especially the forgiveness, love and compromising that you guys even Mr O and Mr Az and Miss Zg has shown to us.) although we're not the best and most listening students. Find happiness soon!!.. haha..

If you were me.

Nah, you dont have to be.

I can be me.

If only you were with me,

maybe you would know.

(Disclaimer: The issues addressed above are sole opinions of the blogger only and are not true facts, so dont take me to court. Names have been tried as much to be protected, but if anyone is drag into any shit because of this stupid blogger, forgive me.)

till then; 20:57

Saturday, January 07, 2006

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Pictography of Christmas with BBI and friends

Evening at ThaiExpress/Esplanade. Yuhui and WeiJian

Shi Qi and Austin(really small)
Me and Manager Khor

Ah gui and ShuZhen

BBI and Friends shot at Orchard/Cineleisure

Feel the vibe

till then; 16:48

Sunday, January 01, 2006

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Welcoming Twenty-O-Six!

Did 2005 buzzed past, or did it crawled through for you?

No matter what it is to you, it's too late already, so stop regreting. Do something meaningful instead, think through on what happened and where you went wrong. Never let the same mistakes strike you too many times.

Besides those sad and gloomy stuff, think of the bright sides of 2005 too! Know that you are blessed and be thankful and grateful to that. Don't ever take it for granted. For me, 2005 is a wild ride. Made many new friends, lost a few great ones, met some brain-in-the-arse teachers(Cockface Tan, Semen Dogtamer ), and cherished old ones. Life is a lil milder than my previous years, though.

Greatest Things I've Done In 2005

-[[ Pierced my ear at a special position
-[[ Got more of me, more orphan/hostile attitude

-[[ Loved

-[[ Got used to solemny

-[[ Have fun

hmm.. What's done has been done and what's said has been said, 2006 is here for the next 365.3 days. Enjoy it, dont endure it. hmm, for me the A's are coming, I'm gonna promise myself to give it a shot, my best one i can afford to, in it and see what I will reap.

On the remaining few hours on the last day of 2005, I went to the Esplanade with Yixin. Was really reluctant at first, but I still went hehe.. Really regret if I didn't make that trip down, we reached around 11 and it was already pouring with wild animals already. After much squeezing in and out, we'd decided to stay in front of the big stage, next to MakanSutra, where i even got a railing to sit on. Got a superbview, really. Yixin suffered though, hahaha.. =P.. Anyway, The fireworks were really astonishing and captivating, really gorgeous. The synchronised music is playing with the crowds mood, and you will know the next second is going to get you crazy. but, still one piece sounded strange though, almost like a funeral, maybe because 2005 has left? The part that I enjoyed most is the finale, where the fireworks go on like there's no tomorrow in a very sophiscated and in a nice flow.

I believe that the thing that has gotten people crazy over fireworks is partly due to the booming sounds that you hear when the fireworks spark out. It really has an incredible impact on you. The whole show is even greater than the National Days' fireworks display. weewoo..~!.okay, anyway, The fireworks lasted for about 10 minutes. What I was dissappointed in was that the hyped crowed lasted for 10 minutes too. The crowd literally dispersed once the fireworks are through and I realised in Singapore, Malays are the more "high" ones. LoL.. There's weren't much partying and parading unlike the Christmas I had in Genting Highlands, Malaysia, that was wild and dangerous with spray cans that are everywhere.(Anyway, I wont be posting photos from Genting, they're all converted into a movie file trapped in a disc, so I cant get it out. yup.)

Anyway.. Enjoy the photos, didn't managed to get great stills but I've got great clips on the fireworks watch them by clicking on the link I've provided at the end of the photos. Cherish them kay? I watched the fireworks through the cameras of my digicam and hp because I'm capturing it down okay? didn't spend much time really enjoying it with my naked eyes. haha.. Didn't post all of the photos and clips because if i really did, I might be dead from waiting. hahaha..

One of my faves sparkles

Slim, yet dazzling.

The volcano at its best.

Twinkling Stars

A chance of playing dumb. hehe

Great Clips by the perfetc one:

http://www.youtube.com/?v=Q2NQwQj-8dQ

http://www.youtube.com/?v=n3EqTLUg_zs
http://www.youtube.com/?v=_kf6E_kNZaM (by therelector on YouTube)

The first chapter of 2006 is unwrapped and so far, blogging is fun. =)

till then; 21:52