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El día de Valentino feliz
Valentine's day is here!!
Emotions: uncertained, unassured. (these are not hints or pressure hor, just emotions.)
Song to reflect me: La tortura-Shakira, Ai Feng Le-Penny Dai
I love pie.28d
School have been busy, very busy, almost like Viagra Fall where when you stand in the flow, you dont really have time to stop for a breather. Oh man, Im so drained, but I have to keep going on. I know I have friends with me though. =) oh man, monday monday, no monday blues but weekday stress came in!! So many stuff to do, maths, chem, phys, this that that this, KILL ME!!!. However there are cheerful acts too. Kan Hong, my classmate, was so klutz lah. Miss Lang was giving out maths test question which she told us to tear the Qn paper into half because it's supposed to be shared among two persons. But Kan Hong misheard her saying we only need half a foolscap and went to tear his foolscap into half, erupting laughters from all around the class when john and shawn announce what he did. Lol. Lessons dragged on till 4.30 lah, I was no different from a seedling left in the sun for hours, drying me up by the second. Oh yah, I saw Joseph's entry on the Top 10 Woman who impacted his life. Im like so wah, I also want to do it. hahaha.. see lah.. when i have time.
Anyway, I realised some things through my own observations.
1.Taurians(Taurus beings) are more solitary, absolute and non-aligned to community living. In the sense that they are able to survive living alone and friends are not definites in their life. This is especially true for the males but this is of a smaller scale and a different orientation for the females. Also, they are blessed with some special abilities in life. =) Observed through: Ken, Joseph, Pei Li, Shu Rei, Kelvin(OG14), me and many more.
2.The benefits of being solitary is that it forces one to be more intellectual. In the sense that they have to think faster and more all-rounded/defensive. Solitary Taurians are also more sensitive to others' feelings, and can to a certain extent, expect others' reactions and subsequent movement. They can also understand situations and things around them in a shorter time compared to others. Not only so, they have better logic and creative juices too. The disadvantage, however, is that it is harder for such creatures to trust, a period of orientation is required. But once trust is acquired, doubts will be sent into thin air. Another minus minus is that Taurians have problems finding strength at times, rendering them indecisive for many important decisions, in so leading to deep regrets for some stuff. Observed through: Ken, past me.
3.The benefit of social animals, is that one is more chirpy and have support from many friends around them. They are also stronger if one can see that power grows with numbers. Social animals group together very often and they have a more balanced mind, body and soul. This behavior, however, often falls into the pitfall of "over-interdependence", weakening the ability of one to survive alone in trials. Thus, a social animal lacks in some of the qualities a solitary animal has. Observed through: JJO5S19, pp like YunJie, Wei Lin, Shu Zhen, Cher Chuan,++.
4. Im not a true blue Taurian, neither am I that of a social creature. I'm like a mix, more like one with split personalities(shuang cong Xing Ge), more of a Gemini(like Yuhui). I'm both an optimist and a pessimist, both a thinker and a hands-on person. I'm not saying im the best among my friends, i'm just saying im strange. Not well balanced though. I have the plus plus and minus minus from both types of creatures. Im one who dont like groupies, the most preferrable friends groups is 3 by 3. meaning groups of three. However in S19, I'm quite comfortable with the big group I'm in, cause we dont dissociate ourselves or discriminate others excessively. Oh yah, I need my friends who are really my friends, or even my attached party to listen to me when i speak. I need understanding especially from these people who are in my heart. For others, I dont care less what they think really. One thing im sure of, I talk to myself a lot(not literally), I play mind games with myself and I challenge myself mentally. Dont know what im trying to send across also, i love and hate myself.
One more thing, my thoughts are getting more disorganised and messy to the point that, I write and type non-flowing lines. LoL. Oh Well. Love Love Love.
No matter what negativity comes your way, what criticism and what pain you receive, never stop believing in yourself and God. Faith leads you. Never stop dreaming, that's the worse thing one can do.
till then;
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