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The bLoved Pomeranian, Coco
I would like to dedicate the first part of today's entry to the most remembered and precious pup, Coco. Today, 03 March 2006, marks a year to Coco's passing on. My bad for even remembering the wrong date, i thought it was 12 March 2005, cause somehow i remembered the 123 link i have coined. then Yuhui corrected me, it was 345, so heartless of me to forget such an important date. It was hui who reminded me of today with a simple message "time really flies.. It's been exactly one yr since coco passed away.." The immense sense of her missing coco is all embedded within one short message. [ '_' ]
Ever since the first year that BBI was formed 2004, more of the gang got introduced to the pup, not exactly a pup but just that it's like a dwarf doggie that never really gain in size, and got more contact with her. She belongs to Yuhui, my bLoved gal from BBI. It was given to hui by her relatives when we in primary four, coco was five while hui was ten. Something unusual about this pup is that it has a very pale and soft golden crop of fur, creating a very comfiness and elegance aura to surge from Coco. This is very much different from other pomeranians which usually have a strong and wammer coat of golden brown, making them seem lion-y and just usual.
She's a bit of a kpo(Singaporean Term(ST) for the being nosey) personality, follows people around and likes to tilt her head, focus and guess what you're doing, but most of the times, she might just sashay past you and mind its own business, somewhat like a typical chiobu(ST for gorgeous lady) friend anyone can have. Well, and one thing, she's really well loved by the Pang family(yuhui's) and friends. It's really cuddly and cute. I miss her.
Last year, it was on a Friday evening, 04 March 2005, I was lazing at home waiting for time to pass before i travel to Westmall(Bukit Batok) for my Guitar lessons. Yuhui dialed up to me around 4.30pm(she refreshed my memories about the time, date and stuff. gee, im turning old man), telling me she passed away. I know I have to make a trip down. On the way, i kept reminiscing about the past. How fun it was carrying her, how adorable it was doing her own thang(surveying the house), how it manages to accomapany yuhui when she's alone at home. How precious indeed. *tears* =)
Suddenly, i thought of how much it slimmed down towards the end of her life, her rib bones are likened to that of twigs and her little legs are like celery stalks. hm, guess everyone will reach upon such a time where your energy level is much, much lower than it used to be, and you start feeling more and more lethargic.
When I arrived at her house, set my guitar down, I hugged yuhui, i think i did, then went over to look at its body.
So, so, so devastating to see it lay down there and stay motionless. I kept dwelling and then burst into tears. really uncontrollable. Most of BBI members drop by, cause we're free at that period of time, to send our regards to the Pang family. But we're all rather optimistic, that she left in peace and for a fresh beginning. =) Still after i left for my lessons, i still kept tearing. And upon seeing Yixin outside the music school, another real animal fannatic, i broke down again. LoL.. guess there are times, where i dont find a need to hide the weaker side of me. I must keep stressing, I'm no superhuman, I'm no Hercules. I'm all meat and emotions too.
Yuhui did describe to me how her little body convulsed, struggling to get her breaths in the last few seconds of her life. But I think, all in all, she really did went off in peace. I'll really still miss her for a long, long time. I still vividly have the images of her, lying next to/behind the black couch when BBI stayed over at hui's house either for open topic discussions, catching up with one another, or watching some films(exorcist! Johnny English!). I can see her lying in her lil' basket while we have out BBQ for celebrations, like yuhui's bday. LoL.. her ice-cream mango cake and shuzhen, me and shiqi's bloody mouth!!
Here, a tribute to Coco. This aint no full summary of her life, it's all done in what I could remember and what encounters i was put through. Yuhui would have done a better job herself. hui: This entry is not to stir up sadness in you, but to let you know, that BBI havent forgotten and will be with you and for each other for thus far and further.
oh yah, to other beans, I'm sorry that I like always stick closer to yuhui, and mention lesser about you guys, it's just a matter of time before i spill all the beans(pardon the pun), you all hold a strong place in my heart, truly.
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Your Life, My Life.
I'm sure most of you guys, at some point of time, wonder a lot about someone elses' life, eg. friends', celebrities'. It keeps you thinking: Why is it his/her life seems to have so much unheveals, happenings, fun, pain and sadness and so much activities. It sometimes gets you envious of another person's life. Not sure if u do get envious, but sometimes I do. I wished I had Leonardo da Vinci's mind, I wished i had the fortune of a rich asses like Tom Hanks.
And it's inevitable if u felt the above, that you will sometimes detest your own life, thinking: "why must I be put through all these sh*t and trials?" It makes u wonder why your life is so boring while others' seem to be so pack and filled with energy? This is most evident in some kids nowadays, as their blogs and msn nicks review their "displease-ness" about their own life, how they hate the people in their life, and how they wish they could die.
Well, the thing is, i realised, that we have all gotten used to our own life, to the extent of being bored and pointless, and instead find new things(others life) more interesting. It all started when I was thinking: If I was a director and i was to pick a stranger on the street to star as himself and the plot as his life, would it be interesting? My own answer was a simple no. But i was to make a story of two persons who has to swap lives with each other for 24 days, it would be extremely interesting.
Why?? It's still about two person's life, just led by different people. thing is, it's will be all new for the different person-s who are put to live another one's life, just like letting a toddler float in a swimming pool, fear, exciment and a whole new sense of interest envelops one.
Still, we need to distinguish fantasy and reality. It's kinda hard for one to swap life completely with another. Instead, we should look into our own life, find new challenges to take up, live each day to its best and let others fancy your own life. Make this a cycle. Appreciate your own life. The idea im presenting is quite abstract, but do ponder over it.
Let me keep my faith in innocent eyes.
till then;
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