Monday, April 17, 2006
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Truly Miles From A Smile
Taking time off my Assignment-choinging to update a little about myself to myself. This past week, I've not been idling all too much. Been dealing with some interpersonal relationship matters, working out solutions to some problems and the usual trying-to-catch-up-with-the-tutorials lifestyle.
Exhausted as expected, there will still be no big breaks for me. I'm also currently fighting some inner demons, or rather i would say, some inner thoughts on relationships. Started to think whether there will be this day when I go running to my close friend, anyone in general, crying over spilled milk between me and my girl. It made me ponder further as to whether such girls would even appear or would they not.
Besides these boy-girl-relationships worries, there's still the study doubt. Can I make it? I seemed to be on track to many people but deep in my heart, I know I'm way behind time. And I better do something about it.
I guess they're just feelings of insecurity that are really uneccessary, but still there exist a need to curb them. How is it possible, you may want to ask? For me, it's through a series of self-assurance and more essentially, talking to my friends, directly or indirectly, to get some advices and directions. Humans are such weak creatures that one's strength cannot support oneself through one's whole life. We depend on the use of external strength and others as pillars of emitional support. Nothing wrong with it though, people who couped up too much are the real sick people. Because they get so emotionally unstable that they start/continue to do stupid things.
What I'm trying to say is that, if you have a problem(s), a serious one, and you have no solutions to it(them), maybe it's time to turn to a friend or a family member. We apparently forgotten the basic notion that we only get to live a few pathetic decades(more than sufficient though, I'm just not particularly happy about our relative lifespan compared to that of Earth's) and we wont be able to make all the mistakes and (quite impossibly) learn from all the mistakes we make.
Sometimes, it's easier to learn from others because you do get clearer picture of the whole situation. More often than not, your friends would have met with problems you never had before, what not would it be, to just consult his/her opinions and learn from the considerations s/he taken and the impact of his/her actions. To put it simply, we dont live long enough to experience all sorts of problems, learn from each other.
hmm, What I've said shouldn't be the first time you're reading them, but the thing is, do you remember it?
Another basic rule of thumb is that Humans are nothing without problems around. We meet with problems day in, day out, every second, every time we make a turn round a corner. Problems are everywhere. They're the indispensable shaping tool of one's character and maturity.
We should not be seeking to eradicate the roots of problems, because without problems, there exist no human. They will be around, whether you like it or not. So better get use to it. Fight them, challenge them and never give up. Through a problem, do you grow most.
If you have not noticed, the root to all problems is you. It is your interaction with the nature, other homo sapiens, animals, machines that problem arises. It is when you sit down and think through ya life, do you find problems.
I like problems actually. They irritate me, but whenever you triumph over one of them, you get extremely elated.
Sexy girls.
I wanna make my wishes soon. World peace!
till then;
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