-[ It's Time. ]-
.. to move on.
All my entries recently, I've been rattling on and on about me being perfetc(again, i emphasized no spelling error.), me being only human, me against the world. Only now then i realised, i'm caught up with the unneccessary need for explanation for my actions and behaviours that are not accepted by my surroundings. I gotta emphasised, "There's gotta be more to life" than chasing down every temporary high.
Oh yah, I think I'm coming out of the little box i enclosed myself in. I took the first step yesterday. It was not easy. I just want to say, thank you, you know who you are. Words cannot express my gratitude. You show acceptance towards my anomalies and love me as a friend the way I am. Dark clouds have shifted out of side, and I'm starting to make my way boldly again. I need you help, and I'll help you. Life, is about interdepence, is about trust. I'm sorry for the days when I doubted you.
Anyway, it's Mother's Day today, every second Sunday of May. We must show our appreciation towards the load-carrier and the love-giver, not forgetting how she endured hardships and kept her silence when she knew she was right. She gave in many, many, many times to you. She shaped you in a way or two. She built you.
I didn't get anything for my mother, because i think i was too bogged down by certain events and i really didnt knew what my mother wants. She doesnt indulge much in worldly tangibles and she doesn't have a big dream, than to have her children grow up and be somebody useful. I only helped her cooked dinner today like every other evenings that I can free myself. I only kissed her upteen times to show how much i appreciate her. I only spent a little time each night to lie by her and talk to her to see if she's alright. She's one superwoman. Even when she's stricken with fever and flu attacks, she'll still take care of your daily needs and be there for you.
She talks to you, reason out with you and always there to listen to my side of the story. When I'm in the wrong, I'm made to know this fact and be responsible to my actions. Unconditional Love, i call these. She's so perfect even at those times when she compromised my father's unforgivable(unforgivable) behaviours.
She's investing lots of time, effort, money and her life into us. I only wish one day, and soon, that I'll be able to fund my parents to travel around the world and have fun. And I will make time to go with them. Cause we're a family. Though I must say, we are much like a tradional Asian family. Family bonds may be strong, but never close. We dont share too much personal stuff.
I only wish, too, that my wife and children would possess her characteristics and hold on to it, amidst this misty and misleading.
Anything you hate about me, direct it at me, Never my family.
The females in my family(my Sister and Mother) said in many times, "Offend someone, not the Beh(s)". =) In case you're unaware of, my Surname is Beh.
Happy Mother's Day to all mothers in this world.
till then;
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