-[ If one day.. ]-
Peili asked me to do something similar to her entry on 01/07/2006.
Yup true, certainly thought about my life going a little wild, a little wrong.
But the list of "what ifs" just runs on, I just wanna highlight two here.
Bear in mind that whatever I talked about here are in no order or importance, ranking or so to say.
I have deliberately messed up the way names(and the messages) are listed.
This post, only one purpose:
Just in case, I'm gone for no reason.
If one day.. I went missing on purpose,
How would you find me?
Keep ringing up my cellphone or my domestic phone?
Do you know who I would turn to?
Do you know where I would run to?
Or would you just pray for a miracle?
Or would you even bother?
For most of the time, a normal-non-scheming person runs away to hide for two reasons:
=/To have a little time being alone.
=/To be found by you.
If one day.. I were to die,
What would be your first reaction?
Would you say, "What a pity!" or "I cant believe it."?
What would you miss about me?
My stupid jokes, my sarcasm, my blog?
My concern for you?
Or would you still hate me?
Black Beans International (BBI) would probably feel all too lost for the noisy and stupid Willy isn't there anymore. Probably misses his ridiculous jokes and veryveryvery mean comments on every friend/stranger. Shiqi would probably miss me a little for my listening ear i've lent him before. Lester probably miss me for being mean to him. Shuzhen might miss the curse of Alexandra taking its toil on us and all the giggles we shared, and for being my longest friend(From when I was 5). Yuhui would probably cherish the lamest jokes we cracked and for the comfort we gave each other. Serene would probably miss me for being irritating and wishing someone to get on her nerves. Jie ying probably would miss the times when we laughed over stupid stuff and times when I help her carry stuff. Eileen would prolly miss me, would she? She would, we are friends. BBI prolly would come together and cry for a while and talk about the times we shared. I'm so sorry, keep BBI going.
Yixin would probably feel a little lonely on some nights when there's nothing much to do and a game of hexic might come in handy.
Probably a little lost when an examinations come along, and Willy isn't there to mug with her and to bug her with his stress.
Probably a little sad whenever she steps into an arcade centre standing next to a Pop'n'Music machine and reminiscing the times we scheme others away, the times we laugh till we cant hit the buttons.
Probably a little hate when I am not there when she wants to scheme an evil plan to escape.
Probably miss me for the times we shop for presents and assert our creativity in it.
Probably a little of the times we shared our food.
I'm sorry for being so selfish and left first.
Peili would probably miss me just a tiny bit for the times we went out and went crazy, the long phone calls we shared, the closest we enjoyed. She would probably miss me most for my listening ear and me sharing my personal stuff. She would probably sign into my blog and do some stuff bah. (Go ahead, you have my permission) I'm so sorry for causing you so much pain again.
JunMing would prolly miss me a little bit for the care we gave each other. Probably a little for the period of time when nights were never lonely and cold, I'm sorry to leave first.
Ken would probably continue missing me. So sorry.
Weilin would probably miss the times we travel to school together and laugh over the stupid-ess stuff. And when we critique other people. Probably the times we eat garlic bread together. Probably the times we spy at my deardear. Probably the most embarrassing acts we commited.
OG14 would probably missed my stupidity and my trademark pose. Probably also the unitedness we all once shared. Probably the laughters we always have had. Thanks OG14, esp Jacq, Calista, Andrew, Kelvin, Sherylynn.
Mitches would probably recall me for me "coldness" and stupid stupid jokes. Probably the tears we shared because of jokes. Probably the role play and drama mamas we all played together.Kent would probably a little miss me for my sarcasm most dearly. Probably also some of the goodnight messages and motivation and help we gave each other in times of adversities and doubt. Probably a little of the times we sipped coffee and talked about everything personal and hypothetical. Forgive my evilness and thank you for accepting me the way I am. JieSheng probably would miss me for the times we are having drama class. Cheng probably miss me for my sarcasm and rudeness and the times we studied together with Kenty Panty. Tong would probably miss me for sms him sometimes when... Thomas probably miss me for the times when we "attituded" together and when we shared genuine/honest comments and stories with each other.Nicholas probably hope a little that I am still there to poke fun at him and just talk talk talk.
Huiting would prolly miss a little for the times we share our problems and when I depended on her for her help. She would probably miss a glimpse of the times we danced together, the time we laughed together. Probably also the times when I teased and bully her. =) I'm so sorry.
Alicia would probably miss me for the evil poking at each other. Probably she would be so inbalanced when yang is gone. BWI and A&W would be gone. Darkness would probably prevail. I'm sorry I'm not always there.
KaiLin would probably miss the times when we are in 05S71. Probably our PCME gang. Probably the times we just laughed until we cant move.
So many probably i used.. why?
Im not sure whether I'm good to you at the slightest degree.
and Am I worth your time and memory?
Not really.
So, please move on with hope.
Oh right, I must wait till my note book is done. I'm having personal letters addressed to people close to me. We'll see. And I didnt mention everyone who touched me in the slightest way or moved me deeply because it's just so impossible. I do love you.
With love.
till then;
03:17
