I cannot believe my eyes.
I'm so dead.
Am I really seeing my fate?
Singapore-Cambridge A Levels Examination
Name: Beh xxx xxxx Willy
NRIC:S88XXX70C
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General Paper D7
Mathematics C
Physics E
Chemistry D
Chinese E8
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How? Even if I want to graze the grass and share the pasture(s) with the cow, they would laugh their udders off at my stupidity. I cannot go anywhere! No universities would accept me for the janitor's position even.
SO DEAD!
Mama said it's alright I've given my best and that I shouldn't brood over it. Come next week I'll be working as a office boy and thats going to be the case for sometime, i guess. No future!
Nothing! Nothing! 14 years of education and I've wasted it all. =)
I bet you cant imagine the drowning amount of sweat I bore just dreaming of this. What a nightmare! The only reason why I woke up is because i check the results again and saw the E8 for Chinese. Thank goodness I've gotten my Chinese paper's results. If not, I think I'll still be stuck in that crazy dream. I was sweating like hell.
Nothing can be worse than embracing a night's rest with a nightmare. Unless I have two more in the 9hours I laid in my bed, two third of the time spent sweating and worrying. I think I worked my brain too hard thinking of crazy stuff.
The second dream was actually about the End of the World. And practically it was the end. It was hell breaking lose. There was no balance in the environment. Venomous snakes roamed the cities and fear enguffed everyone. I was running through the streets with someone(I dont know who), for what reasons i dont know. But we were like the prey for the hunger-driven vipers. Striking at every opportunity, and then "recoiling" themselves and preparing to spring and sink their fangs into both of us. The only reason it was freaking nerve-wrecking is because I had a very hard time dodging them, and they keep coming from all over.
Bet if Huitin were in my shoes, she would have slashed her own throat. LoL. Maybe I'm watching too much tv, in particular wildlife documentaries like Jeff Corwin's Unleashed. Gee.. I have a boring life! Oh well, I was once again shocked to awareness thanks to my 6.00am alarm. I have this daily bet with PeiLi to see who will wake up first.
I lost this time.
The time was 6.22am when my eyes were ajar and she has already sent her winning message claiming victory.
"abracadabra"
*chants chants* How I wish I have some magic to make her late for school. =D Obviously I dropped back to slumber land after some cursing. But the thing is, this time I'm teleported to ancient China. Where emporers pit their armies against each other and concubine thrives to win(Too much Channel U drama!! but I swear I havent watch that show for about a week already, dont know why still dreaming of it).
What's so "gothika" was that I was actually from the future. And I'm in the era where the infamous(no, not pido) Emperor Qin rule his evil empire.Apparently I told him his throne will not always be in his hands, and at the same time in my hands was a book of Ancient China history. Being such a authoratative person, he wanted to know of his becoming. Since they couldn't read modern Chinese characters, they have to keep me alive as a translator. I was sort of an advisor, I guess. Fightings along the outskirts were not uncommon and I was deemed to be the person with the answers. Tensed and pushed up to the war, I could not complain but comply.
I finally woke up due to extreme distress i think. hahas. What a crazy night.
This is one of the reason why I am so afraid of my sub conscious. Everytime it takes over, mad things happen and I dont mean dreams only. Someone could seriously get hurt someday(I'm not mentally ill, dont worry.). My subconscious is my heart, my conscious is my mind. One's evil, the other's morally upright. Which is which?
Make a guess.
P.S. Happy Valentine's Day in Advanced to Jake Beh Jun Ming or is it 8?. LoL. I'm just afraid you will be too busy to read anything here on the actual day. Maybe I'll be too busy that day too. LAM(Laugh At Myself)!
till then;
00:01
Friday, February 02, 2007
Give me a little more time. I'll be back with more.
I was really worn out. I think I'm getting my strength back.
I'm proposing two more weeks and after Chinese New Year.
till then;
21:49